So I’m finally on my way to Peru to my retreat Nihue Rao (mental fist in the air). It seems like a lot of what has happened over the past years/months has come to this. The contemplation of my future and ultimate search of my place in life is now underway and Ayahuasca is the first port of call. For anyone who is not familiar with Ayahuasca, it is a combination of sacred plants which are found in the Amazon jungle. It comes in a drinkable form, which I have heard is very ill tasting. The key ingredient being DMT (Dimethyltryptamine) which acts as door to something which is not of this world as we know it. It opens your mind to new possibilities and gives you the ability to confront fears, anxieties and traumas head on. Coming away feeling lighter and with a new purpose in life.
With any journey seeking something outside the normal way of thinking, you may, as I have, come under scrutiny and judgement. This as you will learn is a form of fear which comes from not understanding. Fear of what is not discussed in say a ‘normal’ topic of conversation. If you talk about subjects outside this acceptable way of thinking you will hear things like why, ”sounds dangerous” or the good old ”OK” followed by the puzzled look.
This month has be a particular difficult one for me. I have faced a lot of judgement from my need to pursue my alternative experience with Ayahuasca. For me this is a cultivation of well over a year of research into the plant. Through documentaries, articles and videos, I have built up an understanding and respect for this indigenous plant tool.
While at my retreat, which is situated just outside Iquitos, I will be having 4 ceremonies. These will be held at night in total darkness. Each ceremony is guided by Shamans. They are very wise and have intimate knowledge of the plant spirits, who they call up using songs called the Iceros. These Iceros are used to guide and help the people attending the ceremony. As you can imagine going within your consciousness to confront your fears can be very dark indeed.
The itch you cant scratch
My reasons for wanting to experience Ayahuasca came from the feeling that things just were not right. The niggle in your mind which you can’t seem to understand. This led me to start questioning everything in my life. With the main question being, ‘what is my purpose’. I sure knew working at a bullshit job for 34 hours a week was not it. The more questions I asked, the deeper the rabbit hole got. At one point I was feeling lots of negative emotions; anger, frustration, fear, depression to name a few. After a while I realised living a life like this was not helping me at all, and I needed to make some big changes. So the long, winding road to understanding began. Which has found me journeying to Peru to take part in, shall we call it a Consciousness Level Up!
A great talk about Ayahuasca was given by Graham Hancock which you can view below.
I truly think this is a time of great change for everyone. If you’re feeling unsure or tired of your situation, look outside the normal means of getting information. Stop listening to Politicians/MPs, celebrities, the news, Gurus, religions or just people who are shit scared off to trying something outside the box. Go have your own subjective experiences and make your own mind up. This will lead to a deeper and personal understanding of what you truly can be.
Note: I wrote this post on my way to Peru on 5/09/2014